lifeandtimes

19-year-old woman girl majors in painting at kansas city art institute; values friends and aesthetics and oddities.

Jib Kidder is the best thang goin.

I want to destroy everything I have made this year. Its all bullshit. I am completely missing the mark. And I don’t even know what the mark is.

I want to cry for an entire day and then kill myself.

Not really. But kind of.

I am melancholy.

The kind of unbearable melancholy that crushes you and you can actually physically feel it. I am carrying 200 pounds of dead weight on my shoulders. I drag my feet, I move slow. My eyelids are heavy, but I can’t sleep. 

I want to make art that I can respect. I want to make art that other people can respect. I want people to ask for my opinion. I want the courage to ask others. I want friends who are smarter than everyone else and cooler than everyone else, who challenge me and make me grow. I want someone to fall in love with me, want someone to see me that way. I want anything, really. 

Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.

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